Both under the influence…
Him.
It’s late, the 4 walls of my bedroom hold a weight that would crumble most buildings. The ceiling contains all my secrets… and the moon knows all my ugly.
Candles light up the dark.. I exhale.. My body sinks into the 3 inch memory foam mattress topper from Costco. Fresh clean new sheets that feel like butter cover the bed but the same intense scenes play on repeat in my mind. I close my eyes and… You’re in me.
I open them again and watch as the fan spins around and around above me.
Do I give into the day dreams?
I don’t really have a choice it seems… Or maybe I just don’t want one. What did you awaken in me? Have I awoken anything in you? You make me feel ALIVE. Adrenaline rushes through my veins when I see you… and when we kiss I swear it all stops, everything. The world fades away. All the damage done to me and all the wreckage I carry is gone. My heart is BEATING again.
I lose my breath.. but quickly find it. You know, like I do when you slip inside me. There you are… where have you been? Your hands on my face, your breath is my breath.. your body on mine. You smell like heaven and sandalwood and your lips taste like whiskey and rain.
Our bodies always have the best conversations. You pressed against me, only sweat and the words we don’t say between us. I can feel you already… Both under the influence of… each other. The whiskey always tastes sweeter from your lips.
Baby, adore the fuck outta me until the sun rises… I want to consume you and all about you you think is ugly. MY friends call me crazy, and maybe I am… maybe I made it all up in my head… But I will never regret you. Your hands are a refuge I’ve longed for. Your eyes are a sea I could get lost in forever. Your smile has me forgetting to breathe. Your cheeks pressed between my thighs and wakes up desires that have slept in the back of my soul for too long. Your tongue turns this housewife into a whore. My back arches into you and the deeper you go the less I can fight it. When your hips dance into mine, I’m alive again. Just like the first night we met… dancing on that dance floor in that smoky small town bar. We both knew it was never gunna end there. Even for this brief moment in time you brought me back to life. I can’t hide from you like I do.